hot, windy afternoons

such as this remind me a lot of my childhood afternoons. afternoons were sacred to me - it meant laughter, friendship and carefree days under the sun. i remember being all antsy, waiting for the clock to hit 330 so i could go out. so whenever it is hot and windy such as today, and i'm standing out in the balcony - i feel peace. it's such a nice, familiar feeling.

so standing outside earlier, letting the wind blow through my hair, while talking to you was a great pleasure.

lovely afternoons made more lovely simply because you were there.

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have i told you lately how much i appreciate our conversations? and i'm surprised that you think you're being spoken to through me. if that is the case, i really don't mind. all i know is, i'm just telling you things as i see it and as i know it. :)

isn't it amazing when sometimes, without you really thinking about it nor consciously praying for it, things fall into place? it makes you think that maybe you're really being set up for something - or that you're somehow in the right path because things are where you'd hope they'd be. it makes you wonder what is planned next for you, or if there's any reason as to why you're being given what you've asked for.

i figure, there must be something in your plans that He thinks should push through. that, and because you deserve what you're asking for.

i really hope that the last piece of the puzzle works out just as well too.

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don't be messin'...

but really tho, i can't be assed to care. not much. not when i know i don't have anything be messed with.

just don't mess with the people i care about tho, because then i'd truly be annoyed. not that i'd do anything, but it'd sure as hell make you the kontrabidas in my book and you'll forever be there. but even then, i'm sure you won't mind much. but anyway, if you can't be who you want to be, or if you can't get what you want because it's really not in the general best interest of everyone else - just suck it up man. life isn't always a bed of roses for everyone - you need a healthy dose of luck and you may even need to be deserving just for that.

it's interesting though. i give it that. :)