my First blog

Because of Rockstar: INXS, my love affair with this song has been renewed Lithium - Nirvana I'm so happy 'cause today I found my friends They're in my head I'm so ugly, that's okay, 'cause so are you We broke our mirrors Sunday morning is everyday for all I care And I'm not scared Light my candles, in a daze 'Cause I've found god Yeah yeah yeah yeah(x6) yeah I'm so lonely, that's ok I shaved my head And I'm not sad And just maybe I'm to blame for all I've heard I'm not sure I'm so excited, I can't wait to meet you there And I don't care I'm so horny, that's okay My will is good Yeah yeah yeah yeah (x6) yeah I like it - I'm not gonna crack I miss you - I'm not gonna crack I like you - I'm not gonna crack I killed you - I'm not gonna crack I like it - I'm not gonna crack I miss you - I'm not gonna crack I love you - I'm not gonna crack I killed you - I'm not gonna crack -==- it...

i mean, there were only four workdays this week because monday was a holiday... but i feel like this week has dragged on forever! :D anyway, this weekend promises to be both busy and fun. sadly enough, my family is leaving on monday so i'll have to readjust myself to being in a quieter house, with no sisters to play-fight with. waaahh!! i always hate the first few days after they've left. :p it's a good thing we have plans for monday so i have an excuse to spend less time at home. -==- gawd, EPASS is MESSED UP!! it's supposed to go signal you first whenever your balance is getting low so you can "refill" it. but TODAY... gawddamn... it just went RED. as in, STOP. as in, no, you no longer have enough epass credits to get you through this special lane. it never went YELLOW! it was GREEN all throughout yesterday and last night and everything. fuckin' ey. :p messed up piece of system.

when i got up today, this song was playing in my head: Are you that Somebody - Aaliyah Boy, I've been watching you Like the hawk in the sky that fly Boy, you are my prey (my prey) Boy, I promise you If we keep bumpin' heads I know that one of these days (days) We gon' hook it up Probably talk on the phone But see, I don't know if that's good (ooh) I've been holding back this secret from you I probably shouldn't tell it But if I If I let you know You can't tell nobody I'm talking bout nobody Are you responsible Boy, I gotta watch my back Cause I'm not just anybody Is it my go, is it your go Sometimes I'm goody-goody Right now, I'm naughty-naughty Say yes or say no Cause I really need somebody Tell me are you that somebody Boy, won't you pick me up At the park, right now, up the block While everyone sleeps (sleeps, sleeps, sleeps) I'll be waiting there With my toot, my loans, my hat Just so I'm low key If you tell the world(Don...

my life kind of changed again yesterday. nothing mind-blowing really, ryan's just back to working at eastwood. eastwood! so we're back to our old ways - far from each other during the week, and where meeting up during the week will take some more effort. hehe. not that it always does anyway. i say it's changed because i've gotten used to be able to make plans as simple as lunch during the day. can't do that anymore now. haaay... like i said, we're back to old ways so it's really nothing new. but it's all good, he's happy to be able to get out of the house all the time now, and i am too! haha! -==- feelin a little out of it today, am not sure why. :p

is to hop to four restos in about 5 hours within the same vicinity, a starting glass of amaretto sour and cosmpolitan (based on preference), 2 litros of frozen gin pomelo unequally divided into four glasses (unequal - because not all of us drink at the same rate) and talk and laughter and unbridled honesty from your girlfriends and your night is made. that basically sums up my night last night with my FILC girls. how the name came up and what it means is a long funny story but i won't delve into that one because that's just ours. i'll tell you the meaning though - just ask. :D hehe. we all hadn't been out together till early morning because we've been meeting up during weeknights and the love for reality tv and other shows had them all running back home sometime before 12. hehe. last night however, saw us at greenbelt, later than usual and tipsier than usual. it was so much fun. and the barrage of ideas were awe-inspiring! gin pomelo lang pala ang kailangan para dun...

last night, as we were on our way home, cruising down Skyway, we suddenly noticed that a lot of the cars northbound had stopped and people were getting out of their cars. a few yards later, we noticed flames, rising above the Skyway. Something was burning right below! :p and it must have been pretty bad as the flames were pretty big and angry. and more amazing is the fact that people were actually looking over the railings of the skyway to check it out. i dunno about them, but i sure wouldn't stop to look at something as angry as that so near. damn freaky. :p i hope that there weren't any casualties in that fire.

i have these days when my heart starts beating like it's nervous or excited or both. it's almost as if it's steeling itself for something . it's annoying because i have no idea why it's doing that and most of all, the feeling isn't all that great. my head feels heavy, my hands feel clammy and my heart is just beating away. :p deep breaths help but only for a while, and then it starts again. ohmigoodness. what the hell???? :p i hope it ends soon, i'm tired already.

last night, i dreamt of one of my real-life fears: a vicious, snarling dog coming up at me, me cornered, dog ends up biting me. in this particular dream, he bit my finger (that bastard! hehe). so i went online, just for the hell of it, to figure out what that meant. well, the site i went to said that in general, if you dream about dogs, it has something to do with loyalty, etc. except if you dream about a vicious dog - because then that means inner turmoil or an upcoming inner turmoil. ermm... what inner turmoil is this exactly? i'm fine! :) i just said that life is steady, fine and dandy. hmm.. maybe i shouldn't put much stock into these things. hehe.

life is steady. masaya. :)

i have a splitting headache. i had a chance to sleep in the car on the way to a client's office but i couldn't sleep! aarrgghh... i wish i hadn't woken up so early kanina. i wish i slept earlier last night. and most of all, i hope that by tomorrow, this stupid jet lag thing is over. i dunno but it's always harder for me whenever i get home. when i get to the states, i only need a day and i'm fine. but everytime i come home - it's a little harder. haaay... -==- i dunno where this day went. but it's a good first day back. :)

I got my book yesterday!!! and i finished the book yesterday!!! i'm serious - i couldn't put it down and read it straight through, stopping for a bout a few hours when we were at my lola's house for my tita's birthday and when we went to church. i ended up sleeping at about 1030 last night even though my eyes were already drooping by 4pm. i love it! so maybe i'm biased, because there hasn't been a Harry Potter book that i didn't love - i just loved them in varying degrees. anyway, i'll let everyone finish off first before i make any comments about it... basta i loved it! :) -==- jet lag is a bitch! it's always been. we arrived at about 11pm saturday night. slept at about 1am. woke up at 6am. no matter how i hard i tried to go back to sleep, i couldn't. apparently, i wasn't the only one because as soon as i stood up, my two sisters stood up from their beds (they've been sleeping in my room because our lola and tito are here) as well. turns...

everytime we come back from the states, our bags multiply. i swear to you, they breed and come up with much larger offspring in different colors. amazing is it not? hehe. :D today was no exception... we came back from one of our favourite factory outlets with three, new, LARGE bags in tow to fit in all our stuff. although i think this time, we're actually leaving some bags that we initially brought. i hope so man, because that's a lot of bags to carry later on! :p and this is only because my dad refuses to bring boxes. i can understand, with all those random security checks, it will be major hassle if they picked one of our boxes to look at. :p i got two more days to go! i'm panic-shopping now... haven't even got most of my pasalubong yet. whoops. -==- the sad thing about being away from home is that you tend to turn a blind eye on what's currently happening there. that being said, i know jackshit about what's up, but from what i've heard it doesn't soun...

well... we're back at my tita's house! yay! i've never been more glad to be back here. all our stuff is all over the place but it's ok, it's cool... it's home. so last tuesday, we drove off to pennsylvania and went straight for a factory outlet. believe you me, i haven't really been buying a lot of stuff yet , although that's probably about to change. hehe. we drove further on to this town (whose name i can't remember at this moment for some reason) that was nearer to Hershey- which was our main reason for being in pennsylvania in the first place. the next day, we hied off to hershey park - starting off at Chocolate town - which is basically this building that houses a 3-d theater (which was pretty fun) and a walk-through tour about how chocolate is made. We signed up for the tour of the town itself, which was damn entertaining! i've been to a lot of tours with tour guides just droning on and on but this was one was different - the tour guides ca...

we're off to another road trip in about two hours. yesterday, we went to Ocean City, Maryland and walked up and down the boardwalk. it was all sunny-with-cool-breeze weather so that was fun. saw a lot of nice shirts though but didn't get any for myself. hehe. of course, they're all the type with sayings like, "Future M.I.L.F" (haha!) so didn't find much that i like. today we'll be making our way to Pennsylvania, to go to Hershey Park, but we're not actually going to the park until tomorrow. the day after that, we're going to New York. the nice thing about road trips here are the wide, smooth roads and hardly any traffic. the crappy thing? the damn speed limits! soo damn slow!! :p ehehe. you see all this wide expanse of road up ahead of you and you can't speed up because of the speed limit. ah well. :p i hope my dad isn't driving today, my (american/armenian) tito has this thing of "giving caution" that makes him sound like he'...

and countless trips to go to at that! anyway, yesterday was my bratty little cousin's 7th birthday, with the customary lunch for friends and family at the buffet chinese restaurant. somehow, the food tasted better than it did last year. whew. :) good meal right there. and then, for dinner, had malaysian food with the rest of the family. chinese and malaysian in one day. yes, i remind you yet again that i am in the States. hehe. :) met some cousins who i've only heard but never seen yesterday so that was cool. of course the titas had us all bunch up together for a picture. it came out pretty nice. at the dinner, i got to talk to one of them as he sat with me and my sister. he's really nice too, so that was cool. today was spent at an outlet, about an hour away from where we're staying. ohmigoodness, can i say, awesome?! i didn't buy a lot though, seeing as we have a few more days left to shop, and well i was just tired. i'm not that over jet lag i guess. i still...

you're fast catching up to us, man! haha! :D and wohoo, i get to go to your party this year! haha! buti na lang umabot. luvz you girl!

bwahaha! i take it back. i can't wait to leave tomorrow! hehe. am actually pretty psyched now. can't wait to go shopping! i hope everything goes well. :)