my First blog

the end of an extremely looonnnggg week is finally in sight. this has been one torturously long week. since i officially started working on a sunday, i feel like it should've been friday yesterday. i so can't wait to get out of here!!! i can't even think of anything that i should be doing, my eyes are half-closed! i can't wait to get out of the office.

so we'll do random shite. -==- my sister has had loads of her friends around at the moment. already we've had two sets of sleep overs at our house. both of these, she had her friends up in my room because it was the only one large enough to fit everyone else. last night, i opted to stay in my room as i had to work. so i did, while watching them tackle, tumble, hit each other with pillows, slap, punch ("punch me, punch me") and all sorts of ouch-worthy things. take note, this is my sister and her three guy friends. okay, it was only jan, neka and mike who were playing as josh was looking on lang. hey've all practically grown up together and have been rough housing ever since. including the time when all of them were doing taekwondo. haaay. i think i spent half the time cringing in pain (they don't seem to feel any) and laughing (mike and jan together is constant laughtrip. parang sitcom. haha). -==- napagalitan ako yesterday. :p i felt like a little girl. the t...

the silly family (naks) picture aliw. my dad called him over after the "normal" family picture to be part of the other "family" pictures. i don't need to explain how happy i was with that right? :D fun fun saturday. tiring. but fun.

busy busy weekend but it was fun!! recap recap. 88 Storey Anniv Party at M Cafe was a blast! i've never really made it to any industry-related events but sayang told me about this one about two weeks before so i knew i was gonna end up there Friday. the coolest thing about that was, so did practically everyone else! i had loads of fun watching friends get drunk on the what-an-open-bar-should-be open bar (so many drinks! so little time! hahaha). i didn't get smashed like a lot of people tho... i guess i wasn't finishing everything that was handed to me. ahahaha! however, the fact that i was there with people i lurve was enough. :) oh, and getting to meet and chat with will devaughn was kick ass too (thanks iya! haha). the beso was one of the highlights that evening. so anyway, i hope another party with a better open bar comes up soon.. babawi na ako sa inom. ahahah. :D -==- saturday found me up by 10am to make my way to greenbelt for lunch with my sisters and my mom along w...

is a family dinner. am serious. we ended up eating at Crustasia last night. They all feasted on crab. I ate... salt and pepper belly chops. bleeehh. i always pick out the wrong things in Crustasia. Is it my fault that i don't eat crab?! ahaha. yesterday was also the first complete family dinner that sayangku went to. our family dinners tend to be full of laughter and last night was no exception. the cool thing about it was, my mom was talking to him, my dad was his usual hirit self (which was how it was when us three ate there the first time), my sisters were making him kwento, he was making them kwento and making them laugh so it was awesome. he knows how to talk to my parents! soo proud. hahaha. :D it all felt very comfortable, just like when i was with his family. so i was really happy about that. that whole dinner - hanging out with sayang and my family at the same time really made up for the fucked up day i was having. i resolve to never wake up sad anymore (at least, try to n...

two days this week, i've woken up crying because of dreams. today, my eyes actually feel a little heavy, like i've cried all night when i haven't. what the hell? i mean, it's nothing new, it has happened to me before but two nights in a week?! that's a little too much i think. :p hhm... is it because i haven't had much reason to cry lately that i've stocked up on so much tears that my body's decided to release them without consulting me. thus the dreams. i don't need them dreams. i don't like waking up sad. i don't like feeling devastated the whole day when nothing has happened. bleh. happy thoughts na lang!

if the person who is meant to guide is someone you don't trust, someone whose ability you question and someone whose credibility is virtually almost non-existent to you? what the fuck do you do? -==- in reference to one of the mini-entries below -- i ended up shedding some tears as i drifted off to sleep saturday night - if only because i felt really bad and sad of the way i still react. i mean, it wasn't as if the person was never kind to me. it's just that the last few encounters were so bad that i still can't shake them off. but there's nothing much i can do, and it's something i can't change within me. so... ganun tlga. i only cried because... sometimes that is the best way i can just let things go. -==- options, options, options. where are you??

(gawddamn. i have tried to start this blog a total of five times. five freaking times. i have so much to say that i don't know where to start). maybe doing recap per day will help? :p here goes. friday as evidenced by the entry below, i couldn't wait for the day to end. since sayang was still at online, i went off to powerbooks in greenbelt to wait for him. jodie picoult is my new favorite author! it's a good thing that gladys' is so good with buying her books, i can just borrow them off her. hehe. :D we go off back to dela costa to try alexa's deli while waiting for 9pm to hit so we could go over to coquina to watch bede's first spinning gig. coquina was fun man... i had fun. laughed a lot. learnt a lot. it's great when your thoughts are validated by a third party... but it just makes me feel worse now. :p got nothing left to do but to suck it up... at least, until i see options again. :) saturday i finally went back to the gym! yay! and i was a good gir...

stupid mistakes have a bad habit of creeping up on you when you least expect it. i already did one today, eventhough i knew exactly what should've been done in the first place. i guess i'm just so out of it that all my brain can handle today is one task. the thing is right, i used to be so bothered by stupid mistakes but today i couldn't care less. who fucking cares?! -==- i think i almost got hit by a stupid van earlier. sayang, as usual, dropped me off here at the office after lunch. i waited until the coast was clear and opened the door. I get out, close the door, turn around to find a van just sort of inches away from my body. it moved away. i walked into our building. 5 minutes later, i'm getting goosebumps because i'm reminded how close i was. good Lord. Thanks for keeping me safe. :p -==- one thing i realized after being here for two months is that it's damn boring to be handling just one brand. never mind that i have two different variants. they are ...

go, check it, check it! and then let me know how many of those you, yes you... actually know. ahahaha :D and in fairness... he's actually pretty good! haha

-Bamboo Can't Believe how you set me free The way you purify this soul don't you know Got you into my arms now I'm never letting go This old dog is finally home...finally home...So! Chorus: Ohh, Tell me what you want I'll pay the price What's money I'll roll the dice Lose it all take the fall Let it ride As long as i have you at my side (repeat 2X) Friend or foe you come to me Wasn't sure how deep a hole i was getting into Do I choose to wake up every mornin with a smile of my face Or see life for what it is one big fat race...GO! (repeat chorus) I've played the fool Thinking i can catch you off guard and score another night with you But the tables have been turned This boy's about to get burned But before i go, i gotta know - i gotta know Let's not forget ou kept me waiting What can i do to get through to you Tired of singin to myself I need a lesson I need a blessing The Shoe fits all we need is a little glue I hate what you do Ohh, Tell me wha...

argh argh argh. if there's anything i wish i didn't inherit from my mother, it's this. :p i mean, it doesn't even really bother me all that much - unless it comes up or it pops up in my head. bad trip lang, kasi all i can think of is, sana akin na lang oh well. one day. i'll have mine. :p

so i bought magazines today for tracking right? the stats -- half of them had all sorts of wedding info. june na nga tlga. who made june brides uso anyway? aaahh... is it because it's summer in the states and it's just perfect weather? so how did that extend to the phils when we spend most of june being drenched in rain?! anyway.. random thoughts. haha -==- since i'm talking about weddings and marriages... what is this ba, uso?! ahaha... or have we all finally gotten old enough that it's starting to become part of conversations when barkadas get together? stats in the barkada - two engaged, one married, a bunch seriously taken and one who says he wants to get married by the end of next year and have a child. stats in college barkada - one married with a child now, one saying that he is DEFINITELY, FOR SURE getting married next year (he has to find his bride, but he seems very confident, haha), about two or three people seriously taken and a bunch of singles (who i'm...

i have this post ... created since yesterday that i have repeatedly posted... and then taken down... and then posted... and then taken down... it's my damn fucking blog but i'm scared to put it up because of history!!! i never thought that i was traumatized, but i guess i was... pero tang ina naman... it's my fucking blog and i should be able to post whatever i want without being scared. but guess what? i am. ffffuuuucccckkkk..... :p

lovin' life coz of you sayangku... :) thanks! :D

i was home early yesterday for the first time in... a very, very long time. so i ended up watching mtv. get spotted was on and guess where they were? at the nestea beach volley victory party in boracay. the same one we were all in. haaayy... i started remembering boracay. such good times. balik na ng bora dali!! ahahaha. :D

"it sounds like you want something, but you're just being mature about it." sometimes, i am amazed at how some people can read me like an open book, no matter how much i try to hide. it's true... i do want something. i want a lot of things! and i'm being mature about it because i know i can't have everything. i just worry about it sometimes, eventhough i really shouldn't. i think it's really all just hormonal, why i get sad and senti and quiet and not know why. thanks for being patient though... and i'm sorry for worrying you. :)