my First blog

Lessons learnt from a distant past A few days ago, i stumbled upon a really, really old diary. it's about five years old. you know how when you read something written by you after a long period of time, you alternately cover your head in shame or laugh your ass off at the seeming immaturity of it all or even shake your head in wonder, thinking, i wrote that?! amazing... well, when i re-read everything, i wanted to cover my head AND hide forever in shame. hehe. but alas, a lot of time has passed since then and there's really no use in regretting. but i've realized two things: 1. you cannot hold a grudge forever pala 2. no matter how much you profess to be smart and aware of of a particular thing/situation, you may still actually act really dumb when faced with that certain thing/situation. -==- i got to realization number 1 while reading this old diary because i mentioned the name of person who i had a really major fight with. it wasn't even a major se...

More pictures are up! I finally got the chance to transfer most of the pictures from my phone to my pc. Click on my link below to check em out. I've placed most of it in a folder called "pictures from my phone" (duh! hehe) am sure kris will be happy... some pix she has been waiting for are finally up for grabs. hehe.

I wanna be a princess too! man, every single little girl in this world would have wanted to be a princess at one time or another. the clothes, the crown, the palace, the rooms... the whole deal. anyway, i just saw Princess Diaries 2.. which is why i'm back at this "I wanna be a princess" state of mind. haven't been in it since i was like, 4?! hehe. :) the movie's pretty much your usual feel-good, teenybopper type movie. Chris Pine is hot tho. and Anne Hathaway's clothes are so pretty! wish i could have some of them. especially those stilleto black boots!! daayymnn. i don't think i was the only one who was envious of all the stuff... every girl in the theater was like, "ohhhh" or "woooow" at one time or another. especially when she was shown her closet. i want her closet damn it! hehe. anyway, i had fun at this movie. it wasn't deep or anything but it had moments that made me laugh. in this bleak weather, it was a welcome b...

there's something about the foccacia bread in Italianni's! at least, that's what Kris, Les, Yan and I think so! hehe. You should have seen us laffing our asses off while having bread and dessert (yes, you read right.. bread and dessert) over the littlest things. i don't think i've ever laffed so hard in one night man. i don't even remember what we were laffing about now! haha! but anyway, if that's any indication, i did have tons of fun with them last night... just eating. all we did was eat, by the way. haaay... :) -==- one of my wishes came true this morning. i hope that i'll get my other wish too!! wish me luck! (my goodness, that was a lot of "wish"s in one thought!)

sakote homes , need ur inputs soon! click on here :) -==- had a good day today with my baby. we saw Stepford Wives, which i really, really liked. It was aliw to see all these men trying to make up their insecurities about their powerhouse wives by turning them into submissive robots. every guy's dream, every girl's nightmare. haha! :) anyway, i liked it... check it out if you have time. -==- the midnight high on magic is currently playing all these really nice songs that you usually associate with Boracay. which only re-affirms my belief that i should definitely be heading back there next year (since am already going to Bali latter half of this year. yay!). we better plan it guys! :D -==- i got something enlightening from my baby today which is making me think. got to admit that it's been at the back of my mind for some months now and have just been waiting to be said out loud so i'd know it really is for real. but i figure the circumstance has some...

Making my heart yearn... i wanna go back to Bora na!!!!

i found out yesterday that ryan doesn't like chocolate much. operative word in that sentence: yesterday yeah yeah.. i got a lot of looks of disbelief because i was so surprised. i mean, after four years you'd think i'd know that little fact but nooo... anyway, we both figured that it was probably because i wasn't a big chocolate eater anyway so i never noticed that he doesn't eat it much. ehehehe. well, well, well... you do learn something new everyday! :) -==- had a cool weekend... anna's going-away party was so IMC! hehe. we even got giveaways. but it was fun. Scene It is a cool game, i want one too! haha! :) anyway, due to some unavoidable circumstances, i couldn't leave the party at mia's earlier thereby missing out on sakote's inuman session at caloy's. :P i was so bummed. but i really couldn't leave eventho i had wanted to. haay.. anyway, joe dear, am sorry if i didn't get to bring you your antacid. :P i felt ...

Wala lang days Don't you just love wala lang days? i classify these days as those you spend being absolutely aimless. just taking each hour of the day as it comes. you're as flexible as you want to be, busy as you set yourself to be. i gotta admit that i've never really had full wala lang days since... well, since i started going to school. now that school is over, i have my diploma and i'm looking for a job, i have wala lang days. and i love them. i love the freedom of being able to go about my day as i choose. i don't have to hurry, i don't have responsibilities and goals to fulfill. i can spend the day with my baby without having to watch out for the time. i can hang out with my friends whenever i want and whenever they call. but i can't deny that i miss some parts of my used-to-be hectic life. since i am one who can get easily tired of being at home constantly, i sometimes wish i had more to do. some goal i can fulfill in a day that required s...

i went a bit "J" (gawd what a term!) today and saw All My Life (yes, the one with Aga Muhlach and Kristine Hermosa). ayt, i'll just admit it right here that tagalog movies have some sort of allure. i mean, has it ever happened to any of you that while you're channel-surfing, you hit Cinema 1 and there's major drama going and then you're kind of compelled to watch.. even just a little bit?? hehe. Anyway, i have great respect for the great drama/love story tagalog movies we have... especially when they're made by great actors and actresses (hindi yung basta basta lang). Movies like Madrasta, and all those other Christopher de Leon, Vilma Santos, Sharon Cuneta, Dawn Zulueta stuff. dang man. they can really make you cry! ANYWAY... well, i gotta admit right here that All My Life made me cry man. In the same stupid way that A Walk To Remember made me cry. It's soo damn sad!! And i gotta admit that Kristine Hermosa didn't do too bad a job on this one. ...

my chi-chi french manicure what is it about french manicures that make girls feel so girly, so sosy-like, and so lady-like? damn man, i truly love my french manicure! promise to myself: i will no longer bite my nails so i can constantly have a french manicure. hehehe. surely my friends will be happy to hear about that promise! everyone's on my case for biting my nails. haaay... wla lang!!

gawd. i love musicians. especially cute musicians with great singing voices and with effortless guitar-playing. i particulary think that the vocalist and guitarist of Stonefree are no exception. I particularly love guitarists. I love watching those fingers glide so effortlessly on a guitar, all that fluid motion, like it's so natural. I used to have a penchant for drummers but a certain drummer from my past has made me rethink that preference. bwehe. :p Speaking of guitarists, I think Stonefree's guitarist is pretty cute, especially when he's playing. He has his eyes closed and is all intense concentration. And he looks as tho he's playing so naturally, as if the ability is as natural as say, breathing. gawd, i have such a big weakness for guys who play instruments. My baby (sigh!) plays guitar. I love watching him whenever he feels like picking a guitar up and play random songs on it. I love watching his fingers glide over those strings and thinking tha...

Forlorn... can i just say that it absolutely sucks to be left behind by someone who thought didn't need to go so quickly? especially since all you've wanted is to be with him just a little bit longer. but what can i do? he does need to go home too. haaayy... =(

Stealing Beauty is a cool movie. I first saw this when I was 14 at a friend's sleepover party and ended up giggling throughout the whole movie. I must admit, when i saw it then, i had no idea what the hell was goin on. Maybe it was all that giggling and gossiping that went on at the same time. But anyway, i got the chance to buy the dvd when i was in the States and finally saw it again yesterday. I must say, it really really is a nice movie. I love it! Liv Tyler, I think, did such a good job in this movie. You felt her confusion, want and everything coming across from the screen. It's such a great story... a girl looking for herself by trying to realize two dreams... it's awesome. Anyway, now that i'm older, i finally understand what the heck was going on. hehe. =D -==- I started out early today as we had to meet up to check out cia's invites. They're really cute... plus it's for a good cause too! The place where it's being made is this co...

Yesterday was a fun day for me. I had lunch with my two best girls, Kris and Kristine. It was just kwentos and chismis galore man! hehe. We really should be able to hang out more. I miss Kristine! =D after that, I went off to get a hair cut and see Ryan. We saw Garfield (second time for me!).. and man, it really is funny! Hey Mama...(dance, dance) damn man, that part just really makes me laugh! ohmigoodness! -==- so anyway, i got an offer sheet today... but it's too low. At the risk of sounding incredibly greedy, I don't think I can work for that amount. It'll be almost like being an intern again (when you deduct tax) but with greater responsibilites and accountability. ah well. I think i'm gonna hold off and see what happens with this other company. Besides, I think i like the other one better naman. Haay.. now i have to think of a way of saying it to the first company nicely. =P Plus, i gotta hope that this doesn't backfire or anything. But a...

No fucking asshole in this world says shit about my best friend and gets away with it!! I am so damn mad, i'm seeing RED!!! When i find out who you are, you better get ready to receive the biggest bitching you've ever had in your damn life. I cannot believe the gall of some people. I cannot believe the nerve. I hope whoever he is gets the biggest karma of his life. Tang ina mo, i hope to get to know who you are.

Today, I had the strongest urge to hug my baby hard. To hide him away from the world and just hug him. I felt his pain. I wanted to take it away. But i couldn't. So i did what i knew would work best.... To leave him alone for a while To let him start talking about it on his own. If he wanted to. I hope he knew that i was there for him earlier, that i cared, that i just wanted him to be happy. that i wanted to fix it all up so he would be happy. But i couldn't. Let's just hope it all works out for the best... and that my baby will get what he wants. Love you... :)

yeah yeah, i know i just posted but i saw this at some other blog and thought it'd be fun to answer it too... Taking a trip down memory lane... 10 years ago.... (i was 12) 1. I graduated from Bene and said goodbye to everything familiar 2. I moved to Jakarta and stayed at a hotel for a month as we waited to move into our new house 3. I started going to BIS and learnt lots of new stuff, including French 9 years ago... (i was 13) 1. Inna was born 2. I went to Singapore for the first time 3. I got into the worst trouble of my life because of a ... (dammit) boy. 8 years ago... (i was 14) 1. I got my braces 2. My parents joined CFC and found myself getting to finally know some other pinoys my age! 3. It was found in school that my reading and writing abilities were that much higher than what is expected from people my age. Therefore, all my english tests where the "higher tier" ones. 7 years ago... (i was 15) 1. I went on my first youth ca...

I feel like a little, giggly girl! hehe When i was about 14 or so, I had the biggest crush on Devon Sawa. As in! I first saw him in Little Giants, after which i watched the movie about a million times just so i could see him. It helped that aneka absolutely loved the movie as well (not for the same reasons, she was only 6! hehe) so we had reason to rent and watch it over and over. Anyway, after that i kept track of him in magazines and then in other movies such as Casper (in which he looked pretty fine) and Now and Then (he didn't look so good there). ANYWAY... the reason why i feel like such a little, giggly girl again is because of this hottie: Chad Michael Murray baby!! hahaha!! i'm sure all you girls out there understand the reason why i'm so taken with this guy. He's damn fine!! (i'm sorry baby, but it's true! hehe) I first saw him Dawson's Creek as that hunky, bad boy guitarist who had the biggest crush on Joey... who went out wit...

Last night was fun. Went to eastwood with sakote and my baby. fun fun. as always. got pretty crazy. as always. but not as crazy as that woman dancing on top of a table at ipanema and following the cries of "take it off! take it off!" shocking. haha! but entertaining nonetheless. anyway, pix taken from that night are up. check it out here guys. =) -==- tomorrow the house will be quiet again. my family is flying back to jakarta na! =( am sad... am always sad when they go. i get so used to having them around that i have to re-adjust to not having them around here uli. i miss them loads when they go. :p but anyway, they'll be back in about 3 weeks or so for Catbaloganon and then i'll be going there in september naman! but still.. that still doesn't stop me from being sad. haaay... buti na lang i have errands to run tomorrow. and Cinderella Story to look forward to! ( sigh! Chad Michael Murray! haaayy...hehe) or else i'll be bawling my hea...

What now? Let me be a little kid right now and say that i want some new high.

Pictures i posted some new pictures at my yahoo album. To see it all, click on here . =) ps. i actually tried to post some pictures here on my blog but it just wouldn't work!! damn frustrating!!

Citibank girls Alright, it's been about 4 months since we were last officially known as the "citibank girls" but this is how i will always collectively think of me, gladys, anna and guia. =) today i met up again with my girls and it was great. there's really nothing like when we're together and we start talking bout all the people we know. in fact, i've noticed that eventho gui, anna and i are no longer with citibank, we are still very much interested in the people there and everything that's been happening. i guess if you were as involved as we were with the bank during the year we were there, i guess you can't help but still stay interested/concerned. it's also quite interesting that people in the bank still remember us 3, at least from what gladys says. i'm touched! i guess we did make an impact and that's great. at least we entertained some people diba? haha! anyway, i can safely say that gui, gladys and anna are some of my...

Old friends Kris, Les, Ryan (yes, we're ok now, thanks for asking. hehe) and I met the friend i was talking about at a previous post. Not only that, we also met another friend of ours who has the distinction of being first, the absolute FIRST, out of all of us to actually get married. His girlfriend... excuuuse me, wife (!), will give birth to their son anytime in the next two or three weeks. exciting stuff. there really is nothing like being with close friends who know you really well, know other things about you that you've forgotten and that other people don't know and to just sit there... catch up on each other's lives and reminisce. i can't forget that these are the people i spent some really really good times with. i consider myself having grown up with these people. these are the friends that i have had for the past i-don't-really-know-how-many years. i love them to bits. now i'm hoping that we can all get together naman and be complete... u...

there are just days where you experience a "first" like yesterday... first time i didn't cry it's weird, because i'm usually bawling my eyes out when things like that happen but last night i didn't. no tears. and i thought that that was so weird. because i dunno why i kept so calm. why i just kept talking. was it because i was so mad, felt so helpless, felt so talo that my tears dried up? was it because we finally talked something out instead of the usual silent treatment so i had no more time to cry about it? why didn't i cry? are there just times that you don't cry even when the situation may have understood the tears? it's weird to have to analyze this. i'm a crybaby kasi eh. and for the first time, i wasn't a crybaby last night.

this is me, right at this moment... sad. resigned. tired. helpless. dry-eyed. confused. stubborn. wide-awake. thinking. sorry. just plain... resigned. (in no particular order) -==- oh and add determined to that list. we looked through some old albums earlier and saw how thin i was. i resolve to be like that again. i swear it. at least i have a real goal now.

i heard from a really good friend today. it was such a surprise because i hadn't heard from him for such a long time. i realized how much i missed him when we spoke. sayang nga lang that we couldn't really talk properly because everyone else wanted to talk to him. anyway, it's all good, coz we all missed him much anyway. man, i hope we can all get together soon! there are so many things to catch up on. -==- anyway, the main point of his phone call was to sort of let out steam a bit and touch base because he and his long-time girlfriend have just broken up. man, when i heard, my heart broke for him too. i didn't know what to say. and then i thought, how scary. scary how you never really know how things are gonna turn out. :P -==- i'm a little tired right now. not just physically but i guess emotionally as well, because i don't know how to handle a certain situation. i'm finding it hard to find a compromise between myself and my other ...