AYOKO NG MAGING AE!
1. Taga-sunod ka sa utos. Taga-gawa ng halos lahat. At! Waitress ka pa, taga-order ng pagkain. Minsan, driver. Or at least, they use your driver. If not, you pay for the cab. What a paradox - you're sort of a maid, but you're rich enough to pay for shit. whatever.
2. You can die on the job. No, i'm not kidding. Last night, we were at the third "final" viewing of our AVP. We were eating food. I got World Topps. Salpicao daw. cut like beef steak. i dunno what happened, but i was just peacefully eating, trying to cut the meat in smaller pieces when i suddenly swallowed it whole. For the first time in my entire life, i choked. and i don't mean the kind where you cough and things clear. i mean, full-on choke, panic, CANNOT BREATHE AT ALL. and the ones i turned to for help, hit me hard on the back, when they were supposed to push up my stomach. i knew what to do, but i couldn't tell them. I've never been more scared in my life. And then finally, after what felt like an eternity, the food just slid down and i could breathe again. Suffice it to say that at the moment, pieces of meat are my enemy.
All i can say is, i thank God for keeping me safe.
What i hated most about last night though, was that right after, i wanted to cry and be hugged. but no one was there.
3. Ikaw ang may kasalanan ng lahat. Sure, wala naman akong kasalanan today. in fact, i should be thankful dahil lately wala naman tlga. Pero it sucks that everyday you watch your back, because if shit goes down, you go down first. aahh hell.
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despite all that whining though, i dunno what else to do! :p it's a lot like when guia was about to move to smart - she sort of had a hard time letting go of agency life the first time because of the perks - dress slightly casual, your time on your hands when there's nothing to do, you can go home early if you like and if it's not needed. and my personal favorite - you only handle about one aspect of a brand's life - not the whole damn thing.
and yet, i'm tired! or maybe i'm just tired of this week. and the past week. of things that don't go my way. of time wasted. of having not enough goddamn time.
and i actually like what i'm doing! most of the time. :p
hay naku, oh baka naman, sinusumpong pa rin ako.
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natakot tlga ako kagabi. i just want to say it again. i was scared. fuckin' scared. fuck-all scared. maybe if i type it out enough, the feeling will go away. :p this is the problem with me, when something bad happens to me - it takes me a while to really forget.
2. You can die on the job. No, i'm not kidding. Last night, we were at the third "final" viewing of our AVP. We were eating food. I got World Topps. Salpicao daw. cut like beef steak. i dunno what happened, but i was just peacefully eating, trying to cut the meat in smaller pieces when i suddenly swallowed it whole. For the first time in my entire life, i choked. and i don't mean the kind where you cough and things clear. i mean, full-on choke, panic, CANNOT BREATHE AT ALL. and the ones i turned to for help, hit me hard on the back, when they were supposed to push up my stomach. i knew what to do, but i couldn't tell them. I've never been more scared in my life. And then finally, after what felt like an eternity, the food just slid down and i could breathe again. Suffice it to say that at the moment, pieces of meat are my enemy.
All i can say is, i thank God for keeping me safe.
What i hated most about last night though, was that right after, i wanted to cry and be hugged. but no one was there.
3. Ikaw ang may kasalanan ng lahat. Sure, wala naman akong kasalanan today. in fact, i should be thankful dahil lately wala naman tlga. Pero it sucks that everyday you watch your back, because if shit goes down, you go down first. aahh hell.
-==-
despite all that whining though, i dunno what else to do! :p it's a lot like when guia was about to move to smart - she sort of had a hard time letting go of agency life the first time because of the perks - dress slightly casual, your time on your hands when there's nothing to do, you can go home early if you like and if it's not needed. and my personal favorite - you only handle about one aspect of a brand's life - not the whole damn thing.
and yet, i'm tired! or maybe i'm just tired of this week. and the past week. of things that don't go my way. of time wasted. of having not enough goddamn time.
and i actually like what i'm doing! most of the time. :p
hay naku, oh baka naman, sinusumpong pa rin ako.
-==-
natakot tlga ako kagabi. i just want to say it again. i was scared. fuckin' scared. fuck-all scared. maybe if i type it out enough, the feeling will go away. :p this is the problem with me, when something bad happens to me - it takes me a while to really forget.
Comments
makes me think extra hard about shifting careers... do i really want to? on the other hand, can i still take the crap?
think, think...
hugs kaye... all the AEs of the world are behind you. :)