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MAJOR. BEYOND AWESOME. God is truly good.

yesterday makes it into the "perfect days" list. :) i said i'd be heading back to Firelake pretty soon and did so yesterday! Scratch two off that list. haha! :) Was pretty surprised when sayang called in the morning and asked if i was up to going to tagaytay and eating dinner at Firelake. Of course i said yes. :D was seriously damn excited and happy about it. We left alabang a little before 4, got to tagaytay in time for 5pm mass at that church there (i realized that in all the times i've gone up to tagaytay, i've never noticed much less been to church there! haha) and a little after 6, we were at Firelake! I love roadtrips. I love Firelake, it is hands-down one of my favorite restaurants. The food is great! I love Cliff House, it's so quiet and just lovely. haha! I love you, Reg! Raprap! Sayangku! Mwah! haha :) thank you, thank you, thank you for such an awesome day. :) Firelake Grill is at Cliff House, Tagaytay. It's just after Yellow Cab, to those int...

i realize it is futile to be miserable, swearing and begging. it is the hand that's been dealt, therefore, one must deal. things will be okay. i shouldn't think about it anymore.

the feeling is back and it's stronger than ever. FUCK IT!!!!!! please God, take it away. I didn't even know that inaminate objects can make a person cry. I don't want any more of the sudden bouts of misery its memory causes, because they can mar a perfectly good day. please remove its thought from my mind. please, please just take it away.

halloween and halloween parties bring a lot of good memories. :)

I have noticed that I react in the same way, whenever the main men in my life are in the midst of losing their tempers. I retreat silently and pray fervently it doesn’t push through. Besides snakes, I’ve found that anger is one of my greatest fears. The sad thing about this is, should the main men in my life get into a fight I don’t agree with, I seriously will walk away and leave them to it. It's something I don't want to see, don't want to be part of and it will be absolute misery to just be there. and besides, i may turn into a baby and just cry. To be sure though, there’ll be some making up to do right after – but that’s only the case for the other half - because it will be my temper that will be unleashed by then. However, I can’t ask my father to do the same. Haha. Seriously though, I wasn’t angry yesterday. I was just slightly scared. But you know, it’s okay to be angry coz it’s not like we both don’t have tempers anyway. Crazy tempers, at that. He just loses it a lo...

despite all the fun and flippancy, i still haven't managed to stop my mind from thinking seriously from time to time. i suspect that this is how i can put my mind to sleep. let it wander over things, mull them over and the next thing i know, i'm dreaming about the weirdest things. so what's the latest thing i've been thinking bout? Money. bleh. First i wish that i had more money, and then i jinx myself by dreaming about what i'll do when i do have more money. I want to spend my pay on something big and significant. Right, let me rephrase that one - i want to invest my pay in something big and significant (using the word "invest" makes it sound so important). Guia has her snazzy earrings bought with her first big sweldo. i have... a whole load of clothes from Topshop and Zara and some Viktor jeans. oh, and trips. sigh. it doesn't help that i have officemates who are thinking of buying something big. i can't help but also ask myself if can i do that ...