my First blog

this is what i hate when one of you has to be OT and the other has nothing to do and it's a weekend. that's exactly it, there's nothing to do. and you text your friends and try to arrange for something, but they're all not moving because it's just too damn early to be thinking and deciding things. i can't believe it's only 5-fucking-30pm. what the hell?! this day has gone by soo slowly. anyway, i hope something fixes up with the barkada tonight. i hope someone finally replies! have no idea what we're gonna do later. i have this feeling though, that i'm gonna end up at home. bleeeehhhh.... :p gawd, i hope not! :p

so yesterday, Milenyo arrived in the country with a vengeance. Signal number 3. For a while there, i started thinking he may actually run away with my roof. Realised yesterday that having the attic as your room isn't all that great when you're the first thing the wind hits during a storm. I was one of the lucky ones who were told early on that there wasn't any work that day... so i had the privilege of not having the problem of being stuck somewhere and unable to get home. After about half a day of not having electricity though, and finding that most of my electronics were going to die on me before the day ended (except my phones, that is), i seriously started thinking that it may have been cool to have been stuck somewhere after all. At least you get to be with friends right? :p But no... stuck at home. Listening to winds carry things and banging them against windows and roofs. Going crazy with the lack of anything to do. By 7pm, i was pissed off at the lack of electricity...

(picked this is up from dezphaire . it's so beautiful, i had to post it on my blog too) maybe nothinginess is to be without your presence without you moving, slicing the noon like a blue flower, without you walking later through the fog and the cobbles, without the light you carry in your hand, golden, which maybe others will not see, which maybe no one knew was growing like the red beginnings of a rose. In short, without your presence: without your coming suddenly, incitingly, to know my life, gust of a rosebush, wheat of wind: since then I am because you are, since then you are, I am, we are, and through love I will be, you will be, we will be. - love sonnet LXIX

if i look back, i think the love for watching anime sprung from Fushigi Yuugi - all the way back in freshman year in college. I've Maie to thank for that. I used to spend hours watching episode upon episode. it was then that i realized that while i may have outgrown the cartoons over at nickelodeon, disney channel and cartoon network - i also re-channeled my love for animation to that art called anime. i may not be as big as a fan as some of my friends and my boy - i certainly won't comment on art and i haven't followed any particular anime enough to be able to tell its story (i swear, it's like soap opera for boys. listen to my sayang tell me about Gundam Seed, he knows it all, haha!) but i seriously can just sit back and watch riveted. admittedly, i haven't indulged my couch-potato side in so long and i still have a bunch of cartoons in my dvd collection - all from sayang that i haven't gotten around to watching. But last night, we finally got around to just s...

last saturday night, while we were sitting at seattle's in eastwood, caloy made a very valid point: that out of the five that were currently sitting there, four are very happy where they are. and i guess we are, really. we like what we do, we like the way our lives are going, we love who we're with and we all had the luxury of either knowing exactly what they wanted from the start and were able to overcome parental pressure or like me, was (is) given free rein when it came to decisions concerning my life. without knowing it, we've actually been given pretty good lives. i'm thankful. :) -==- so the reason why we were sitting in seattles eastwood until wee hours of the morning was a break up. i felt really bad for him, but on the other hand, i was also a little happy for him. we've always described their relationship as "tough love" - i think i heard them fighting (or heard about them fighting) more than anything else. it was a relationship bound in jealousy...

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net drinky, drinky! :D friday mode ako. haha! let's go drink! and in an unrelated (but can be related, haha) note: miss ko na gigs-gimik! \m/

so we were at a bpi atm machine and you know how they run ads now right? so the one that's on now says things like: stop thinking about the future stop looking at all options stop waiting for the right time stop wishing and all these other phrases that have basically to do with what one does when they think about something they'd like to do or have but can't yet. in the end they say, let's begin I wanted to say: easy for you to say. because right now, no matter how much i/we want to begin something, it isn't that easy. and dreaming isn't so bad when it's all you've got. :)