8 days na lang!
wla lang, we're leaving in exactly 8 days. :D yay. hehe
i love shopping here. i only do this much of major shopping whenever i go here. :D yay.
last night was a blast (well, early afternoon for gui, glads and anna). we ended up exchanging emails continuously and the thread lasted for quite a while. i gave up and went to bed. :D still, it was great. as anna and glads said, it was a lot like when all four of us were still in the citi and would chat amongst ourselves just to make the day more interesting. that would include me popping up over the cubicle just so i could hear what they were saying (no fair, all of them were bunched up in a two-person cubicle. guia never liked staying in hers, which was right behind me). that was fun. too bad gui, hindi natuloy. but there's always a next time. yay!
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u know what i hate about being a graduate? all this uncertainty. at least with school, you know FOR SURE that tomorrow or the next day, you're gonna go there, listen to some crap, hand in some homework or something. there's always a goal for each day, each week.
but i'm a graduate now, so i don't have to go to school. i'm still looking for a job so i have nothing to look forward to, no deadlines to worry bout, no goals for the day. i'm just floating around, taking each day as it comes, just hangin'.
i dunno if i like it or not. somehow i love the feeling that i'm not tied to anything so serious. but it drives me crazy but it gives me enough time to worry about.. stuff.
stuff like the future, money, where i want to be (i don't really know, but somewhere not in the phil for a few years), who i want to be (no exact definitions, just that i want to be secure, satisfied, successful and happy), what i want to do (something i really love - oh how vague).
and i'm unsatisfied because i'm nowhere near doing whatever it is i should do so i can have some of those things i just wrote up there.
i'm 22 ... and i'm complaining about limbo.
i dunno, i guess it's because i feel like if i were to do something about my life.. it should be now. because within this decade, i'm also expected (well, i hope) to get married, have kids (i don't want to be too old to start having them), settle my life and be stable. so i have to be unstable now. and i can't be unstable if i'm NOT DOING ANYTHING! gets?? gets??
maybe i'm putting too much pressure on myself because i want some pretty definite things.
might as well keep doing what i'm already doing now... just going with the flow.
after all, i am entitled to... being 22 and all.
:D
grrr... quarter life crisis. help.
i need to do more things with my time i swear.
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kris: i miss you guys like crazy!!! i miss having people my age to talk to!! man, i cannot wait to get back home.
wla lang, we're leaving in exactly 8 days. :D yay. hehe
i love shopping here. i only do this much of major shopping whenever i go here. :D yay.
last night was a blast (well, early afternoon for gui, glads and anna). we ended up exchanging emails continuously and the thread lasted for quite a while. i gave up and went to bed. :D still, it was great. as anna and glads said, it was a lot like when all four of us were still in the citi and would chat amongst ourselves just to make the day more interesting. that would include me popping up over the cubicle just so i could hear what they were saying (no fair, all of them were bunched up in a two-person cubicle. guia never liked staying in hers, which was right behind me). that was fun. too bad gui, hindi natuloy. but there's always a next time. yay!
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u know what i hate about being a graduate? all this uncertainty. at least with school, you know FOR SURE that tomorrow or the next day, you're gonna go there, listen to some crap, hand in some homework or something. there's always a goal for each day, each week.
but i'm a graduate now, so i don't have to go to school. i'm still looking for a job so i have nothing to look forward to, no deadlines to worry bout, no goals for the day. i'm just floating around, taking each day as it comes, just hangin'.
i dunno if i like it or not. somehow i love the feeling that i'm not tied to anything so serious. but it drives me crazy but it gives me enough time to worry about.. stuff.
stuff like the future, money, where i want to be (i don't really know, but somewhere not in the phil for a few years), who i want to be (no exact definitions, just that i want to be secure, satisfied, successful and happy), what i want to do (something i really love - oh how vague).
and i'm unsatisfied because i'm nowhere near doing whatever it is i should do so i can have some of those things i just wrote up there.
i'm 22 ... and i'm complaining about limbo.
i dunno, i guess it's because i feel like if i were to do something about my life.. it should be now. because within this decade, i'm also expected (well, i hope) to get married, have kids (i don't want to be too old to start having them), settle my life and be stable. so i have to be unstable now. and i can't be unstable if i'm NOT DOING ANYTHING! gets?? gets??
maybe i'm putting too much pressure on myself because i want some pretty definite things.
might as well keep doing what i'm already doing now... just going with the flow.
after all, i am entitled to... being 22 and all.
:D
grrr... quarter life crisis. help.
i need to do more things with my time i swear.
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kris: i miss you guys like crazy!!! i miss having people my age to talk to!! man, i cannot wait to get back home.
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