Restless

i've been like this ever since i came back from jakarta. it's turned me into quite a bit of a bitch at times too... even when my baby is around, only because i'm with him all the time (spending lots of time before i leave for the states for a month).

argh. i hate it! it's a good thing it's not a constant thing or else i'll start hating myself.

i'm sorry baby, i love being with you.. really, i just dunno what's up with me.

i'm pikon, restless and perpetually questioning myself.

questioning what part of life or myself exactly, i have no fucking idea.

i feel like i want to do something but i don't know what
i feel like i'm missing something but i don't know what it is
i feel like i should be someplace but i don't know where
i feel like i should have some direction, but i don't know where to

aaarrggghhh!!!!

this has been the quietest saturday i've ever had... but it's about to get better. :)



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