my First blog

Because of Rockstar: INXS, my love affair with this song has been renewed Lithium - Nirvana I'm so happy 'cause today I found my friends They're in my head I'm so ugly, that's okay, 'cause so are you We broke our mirrors Sunday morning is everyday for all I care And I'm not scared Light my candles, in a daze 'Cause I've found god Yeah yeah yeah yeah(x6) yeah I'm so lonely, that's ok I shaved my head And I'm not sad And just maybe I'm to blame for all I've heard I'm not sure I'm so excited, I can't wait to meet you there And I don't care I'm so horny, that's okay My will is good Yeah yeah yeah yeah (x6) yeah I like it - I'm not gonna crack I miss you - I'm not gonna crack I like you - I'm not gonna crack I killed you - I'm not gonna crack I like it - I'm not gonna crack I miss you - I'm not gonna crack I love you - I'm not gonna crack I killed you - I'm not gonna crack -==- it...

i mean, there were only four workdays this week because monday was a holiday... but i feel like this week has dragged on forever! :D anyway, this weekend promises to be both busy and fun. sadly enough, my family is leaving on monday so i'll have to readjust myself to being in a quieter house, with no sisters to play-fight with. waaahh!! i always hate the first few days after they've left. :p it's a good thing we have plans for monday so i have an excuse to spend less time at home. -==- gawd, EPASS is MESSED UP!! it's supposed to go signal you first whenever your balance is getting low so you can "refill" it. but TODAY... gawddamn... it just went RED. as in, STOP. as in, no, you no longer have enough epass credits to get you through this special lane. it never went YELLOW! it was GREEN all throughout yesterday and last night and everything. fuckin' ey. :p messed up piece of system.

when i got up today, this song was playing in my head: Are you that Somebody - Aaliyah Boy, I've been watching you Like the hawk in the sky that fly Boy, you are my prey (my prey) Boy, I promise you If we keep bumpin' heads I know that one of these days (days) We gon' hook it up Probably talk on the phone But see, I don't know if that's good (ooh) I've been holding back this secret from you I probably shouldn't tell it But if I If I let you know You can't tell nobody I'm talking bout nobody Are you responsible Boy, I gotta watch my back Cause I'm not just anybody Is it my go, is it your go Sometimes I'm goody-goody Right now, I'm naughty-naughty Say yes or say no Cause I really need somebody Tell me are you that somebody Boy, won't you pick me up At the park, right now, up the block While everyone sleeps (sleeps, sleeps, sleeps) I'll be waiting there With my toot, my loans, my hat Just so I'm low key If you tell the world(Don...

my life kind of changed again yesterday. nothing mind-blowing really, ryan's just back to working at eastwood. eastwood! so we're back to our old ways - far from each other during the week, and where meeting up during the week will take some more effort. hehe. not that it always does anyway. i say it's changed because i've gotten used to be able to make plans as simple as lunch during the day. can't do that anymore now. haaay... like i said, we're back to old ways so it's really nothing new. but it's all good, he's happy to be able to get out of the house all the time now, and i am too! haha! -==- feelin a little out of it today, am not sure why. :p

is to hop to four restos in about 5 hours within the same vicinity, a starting glass of amaretto sour and cosmpolitan (based on preference), 2 litros of frozen gin pomelo unequally divided into four glasses (unequal - because not all of us drink at the same rate) and talk and laughter and unbridled honesty from your girlfriends and your night is made. that basically sums up my night last night with my FILC girls. how the name came up and what it means is a long funny story but i won't delve into that one because that's just ours. i'll tell you the meaning though - just ask. :D hehe. we all hadn't been out together till early morning because we've been meeting up during weeknights and the love for reality tv and other shows had them all running back home sometime before 12. hehe. last night however, saw us at greenbelt, later than usual and tipsier than usual. it was so much fun. and the barrage of ideas were awe-inspiring! gin pomelo lang pala ang kailangan para dun...

last night, as we were on our way home, cruising down Skyway, we suddenly noticed that a lot of the cars northbound had stopped and people were getting out of their cars. a few yards later, we noticed flames, rising above the Skyway. Something was burning right below! :p and it must have been pretty bad as the flames were pretty big and angry. and more amazing is the fact that people were actually looking over the railings of the skyway to check it out. i dunno about them, but i sure wouldn't stop to look at something as angry as that so near. damn freaky. :p i hope that there weren't any casualties in that fire.

i have these days when my heart starts beating like it's nervous or excited or both. it's almost as if it's steeling itself for something . it's annoying because i have no idea why it's doing that and most of all, the feeling isn't all that great. my head feels heavy, my hands feel clammy and my heart is just beating away. :p deep breaths help but only for a while, and then it starts again. ohmigoodness. what the hell???? :p i hope it ends soon, i'm tired already.