my First blog

June 28, 2003... it's one of our numerous monthsaries.. today we're 3 years and 5 months old. he knows how much he means to me.. and how grateful i am to have him in my life. because i truly, truly am... no one else knows me as well as he does.. and he's fine with all that he knows about me. we've been through so much tlga..we're practically attached to the hip. after 3 years, i'm still happy... and i think i will always be happy with him... i can't imagine being with anyone else tlga... so les.. kahit na bmw 7series pa yang nasa harap ko... dun pa din ako sa baby ko!! final answer yun! i can't explain the certainty but i know it's true, kahit ano pa sabihin mo! hehe.. truly naman... =) ey baby... you're the only other half that makes me whole. luv ya sige na.. mush ends here! =)

it's a saturday and i am at home... at 6pm. woohoo! something new... =P but i hope i can go out with my friends later. i've been missing their company since i've always had a lot of fun with them. strangest thing is, i've only met most of these people last april... but being around them is fun. you get to listen and hear some things that they have done that just make you go, "hmm... sure does not seem the type!" hehe. it's great.. hoy les & kris.. miss ko na kayo! pati na din sila paul! but it's not just my friends too.. i miss ryan too! but at least i get to see him tomorrow. =) baby! magpakita ka na uli! anyways, i feel a lot more objective now about my job after the residency integration class this morning. (i swear, that class should be called "residents anonymous". hehe). what ppl have been doing lately in class is talk bout their jobs, how they feel and all that so it seems like a therapy session because people vent and...

people, especially people at work, usually ask me what i think about my job and how i'm doing. the second question is actually easier to answer than the first. when people ask how i'm doing, i answer "okay.." no matter how tired, stressed or completely annoyed i am, i still say the same thing. the first question is pretty hard to answer especially since... well.. after almost a month, i really do not know what to make of my job. i do the best i can and i try my best not to make any mistakes.. but to have any real feelings about it.. well, i don't. and somehow, sometimes i think i'm not gonna survive. i mean, 9 more months of this?! and i happen to be in a department where the work just does not stop. man, i feel bad for my boss.. if i feel stressed, i wonder how she is?! gawd... maybe this will get better and i'm still adjusting to things that's why it's all so hard. but really... i do not know what i think about my job.

wohoo!! am back online... my new pc is finally up and running!! it's such a great feeling having a new comp... =) work has been.. hectic!!! aahhh!!! that's all i'm gonna say about it right now. sad thing is, school started last saturday too. oh man... hell year has officially begun! but work is ok naman... it's not all that bad.. all the people you get to meet and all the new things you learn. i just hate the part about being someone's "utusan" tho. most of my family was around last weekend for my lolo and lola's 50th wedding anniversary. my baby was around too.. it was great! but the night didn't end so great for my hun. i'm just glad he was around and that they're ok. haay.. i really wanted to hug him then. anyways, i better go off to bed... gotta get back to work tom. i left early today because of an upset stomach. whenever i do, i feel the need to go home. i'm not comfortable being anywhere else if there's something ...

changed templates yet again... wanted a simpler look... =)

ey... just had an interview with citibank earlier. guess it wasn't the usual applying-for-a-job interview because it was mostly them asking things about ourselves and where we would want to be assigned. and besides, we were in already so i guess they just wanted to know who we were. most surprising question asked me was: "do you have a strict dad or a strict boyfriend who may object to you staying out late?" i was like... "well, my family lives in jakarta so i'm the only one here and my boyfriend works the graveyard shift at C-cube so doesn't mind... so.. nope, no one minds that i stay out late." damn man.. guess that means late nights at work. hope it's not too often tho. and damn, i still wish that the 'rents will allow me to live somewhere nearer na lang. i can share naman with glads... haaay... they'll be in town in 2 weeks. guess they'll see first-hand how busy it'll be and it may get them to agree. i mean, i love my h...

you know that feeling where life is zooming right past you and you have no control of it whatsoever no matter what you do? THAT is exactly what i'm feeling now. 5th year is coming a little too quickly. i thought i still had about two weeks to re-adjust myself in manila and get myself psyched for the upcoming year but then i get this text from gladys that said, "kaye! did you get my text?? we're starting on june 3!!" apparently, citibank wants us to start then... and we haven't even enrolled yet! man.. i was shocked. and now, even though i'm totally excited, i'm scared as hell. i mean, why shouldn't i? this is totally different from anything else that i have done before. this is not like the first day of school... it's the first day of work! at least with school, you know that you that you need to have a notebook or a piece of paper at least, a pen and your schedule. and you know that on the first day of school, you will spend most of it m...