how well do you really know... me?
aka a look at myself, honestly.
because i have done nothing but think about so many things at almost the same time that thoughts have become unintelligible... here's an attempt to offload some. :p this in hopes that if i write it down, i can stop thinking about them and other thoughts can come into the fore.
bleh.
so here goes.
1. more often that not, you will find me smiling
- if you know me well, you will be able to tell by the intensity of the smile and by how far it reaches my eyes the exact mood i'm in. yes, even if i'm sad.
2. i am talkative
- i really am. but as articulate and un-shy (is that a word?) as i am, i find it very difficult to express exactly what i am thinking and feeling especially if:
1) i think it's trivial (and yet people will tell me it's not)
2) it may possibly cause confrontation
the bad side to this is, i have a very hard time letting someone know EXACTLY how i feel. the person i'm talking to will need to have patience and ask the right questions for it to come out. and sometimes, i just really can't find the words so i cry. and yet, when i want to - it will all come out when i'm writing.
another point, i am hardly ever quiet. if i am, it's only one of two things:
a) i'm having fun listening and really have nothing to say
b) i've got something in my mind and i'm not ready to say it yet. i may never will. :p
3. i always have questions in my mind
- i am as carefree and happy-go-lucky as i am known but i always have questions in the back of my mind. the what-ifs, whats, whys, hows. they only come to the forefront whenever i'm left alone. or when something triggers them
4. i can hide very very well
- it's part of item number 2. but if you know me very well also, i can be very transparent even if i'm trying to hide. there are a number of people in my life who can tell right away - and they're all very good at it.
5. I am an "ate" and a baby
- most of the time, i know i am logical, responsible. but i have my moments when i want to be a baby and i really need to let that out. i like being taken cared of and the feeling of being spoiled (sometimes)
6. I am more often than not, restless
- and i don't know how to stop.
7. i always want to get what i want
- and sometimes i do. and when i don't, i have to feel bad about it first before i can move on.
8. i make up scenarios in my head
- of anything. and i can see them play out very clearly too. :p and i have moments in real life when i know exactly what the other person is about to say because i've seen it all before.
9. i'm happiest when things are steady
- which is really contradictory to be being restless. but if my friends, family and sayangku are steady... i am happy. life is happy.
10. i thought i was simple...
but apparently, i'm very complex.
bleh.
because i have done nothing but think about so many things at almost the same time that thoughts have become unintelligible... here's an attempt to offload some. :p this in hopes that if i write it down, i can stop thinking about them and other thoughts can come into the fore.
bleh.
so here goes.
1. more often that not, you will find me smiling
- if you know me well, you will be able to tell by the intensity of the smile and by how far it reaches my eyes the exact mood i'm in. yes, even if i'm sad.
2. i am talkative
- i really am. but as articulate and un-shy (is that a word?) as i am, i find it very difficult to express exactly what i am thinking and feeling especially if:
1) i think it's trivial (and yet people will tell me it's not)
2) it may possibly cause confrontation
the bad side to this is, i have a very hard time letting someone know EXACTLY how i feel. the person i'm talking to will need to have patience and ask the right questions for it to come out. and sometimes, i just really can't find the words so i cry. and yet, when i want to - it will all come out when i'm writing.
another point, i am hardly ever quiet. if i am, it's only one of two things:
a) i'm having fun listening and really have nothing to say
b) i've got something in my mind and i'm not ready to say it yet. i may never will. :p
3. i always have questions in my mind
- i am as carefree and happy-go-lucky as i am known but i always have questions in the back of my mind. the what-ifs, whats, whys, hows. they only come to the forefront whenever i'm left alone. or when something triggers them
4. i can hide very very well
- it's part of item number 2. but if you know me very well also, i can be very transparent even if i'm trying to hide. there are a number of people in my life who can tell right away - and they're all very good at it.
5. I am an "ate" and a baby
- most of the time, i know i am logical, responsible. but i have my moments when i want to be a baby and i really need to let that out. i like being taken cared of and the feeling of being spoiled (sometimes)
6. I am more often than not, restless
- and i don't know how to stop.
7. i always want to get what i want
- and sometimes i do. and when i don't, i have to feel bad about it first before i can move on.
8. i make up scenarios in my head
- of anything. and i can see them play out very clearly too. :p and i have moments in real life when i know exactly what the other person is about to say because i've seen it all before.
9. i'm happiest when things are steady
- which is really contradictory to be being restless. but if my friends, family and sayangku are steady... i am happy. life is happy.
10. i thought i was simple...
but apparently, i'm very complex.
bleh.
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