no matter what i do, i can't get through him.

and i've tried to be nice about it and i even tried to be angry about it.

but wala.

it's like talking to a brick wall with a twisted sense of logic.

i can't believe i did all this. that the person i'm looking at is precisely the way he is because of me.

i want to reach into his brain and rearrange all his thoughts so the sane, sensible and good person that i know is in there somewhere will come back out.

but i did this.

this.

it was all me.

it hurts to see him like that. i hate hearing him speak like that because it breaks my heart. as bad as everything is, i do care. i want to end up friends. i don't want him to throw away his life.

me.

me.

me.

oh God, it's all because of me

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Wan Jun said…
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1:10 PM
Wan Jun said…
I don't know what the entire story of your situation is but from my experience though, first stage of breakup is denial over the devastating feeling. So maybe he might be undergoing that.

This situation is ironic because it reminds of Caloy. I hope that there would be no bitterness that would be left between two parties.

I'll be praying for the both of you.
1:12 PM
kaye said…
thanks Jayme...
5:39 PM
anton said…
hey if you need someone to talk to, ill be here lang.
9:10 AM
kaye said…
thanks ton... :)
2:28 PM
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