my First blog

the end of an extremely looonnnggg week is finally in sight. this has been one torturously long week. since i officially started working on a sunday, i feel like it should've been friday yesterday. i so can't wait to get out of here!!! i can't even think of anything that i should be doing, my eyes are half-closed! i can't wait to get out of the office.

so we'll do random shite. -==- my sister has had loads of her friends around at the moment. already we've had two sets of sleep overs at our house. both of these, she had her friends up in my room because it was the only one large enough to fit everyone else. last night, i opted to stay in my room as i had to work. so i did, while watching them tackle, tumble, hit each other with pillows, slap, punch ("punch me, punch me") and all sorts of ouch-worthy things. take note, this is my sister and her three guy friends. okay, it was only jan, neka and mike who were playing as josh was looking on lang. hey've all practically grown up together and have been rough housing ever since. including the time when all of them were doing taekwondo. haaay. i think i spent half the time cringing in pain (they don't seem to feel any) and laughing (mike and jan together is constant laughtrip. parang sitcom. haha). -==- napagalitan ako yesterday. :p i felt like a little girl. the t...

the silly family (naks) picture aliw. my dad called him over after the "normal" family picture to be part of the other "family" pictures. i don't need to explain how happy i was with that right? :D fun fun saturday. tiring. but fun.

busy busy weekend but it was fun!! recap recap. 88 Storey Anniv Party at M Cafe was a blast! i've never really made it to any industry-related events but sayang told me about this one about two weeks before so i knew i was gonna end up there Friday. the coolest thing about that was, so did practically everyone else! i had loads of fun watching friends get drunk on the what-an-open-bar-should-be open bar (so many drinks! so little time! hahaha). i didn't get smashed like a lot of people tho... i guess i wasn't finishing everything that was handed to me. ahahaha! however, the fact that i was there with people i lurve was enough. :) oh, and getting to meet and chat with will devaughn was kick ass too (thanks iya! haha). the beso was one of the highlights that evening. so anyway, i hope another party with a better open bar comes up soon.. babawi na ako sa inom. ahahah. :D -==- saturday found me up by 10am to make my way to greenbelt for lunch with my sisters and my mom along w...

is a family dinner. am serious. we ended up eating at Crustasia last night. They all feasted on crab. I ate... salt and pepper belly chops. bleeehh. i always pick out the wrong things in Crustasia. Is it my fault that i don't eat crab?! ahaha. yesterday was also the first complete family dinner that sayangku went to. our family dinners tend to be full of laughter and last night was no exception. the cool thing about it was, my mom was talking to him, my dad was his usual hirit self (which was how it was when us three ate there the first time), my sisters were making him kwento, he was making them kwento and making them laugh so it was awesome. he knows how to talk to my parents! soo proud. hahaha. :D it all felt very comfortable, just like when i was with his family. so i was really happy about that. that whole dinner - hanging out with sayang and my family at the same time really made up for the fucked up day i was having. i resolve to never wake up sad anymore (at least, try to n...

two days this week, i've woken up crying because of dreams. today, my eyes actually feel a little heavy, like i've cried all night when i haven't. what the hell? i mean, it's nothing new, it has happened to me before but two nights in a week?! that's a little too much i think. :p hhm... is it because i haven't had much reason to cry lately that i've stocked up on so much tears that my body's decided to release them without consulting me. thus the dreams. i don't need them dreams. i don't like waking up sad. i don't like feeling devastated the whole day when nothing has happened. bleh. happy thoughts na lang!

if the person who is meant to guide is someone you don't trust, someone whose ability you question and someone whose credibility is virtually almost non-existent to you? what the fuck do you do? -==- in reference to one of the mini-entries below -- i ended up shedding some tears as i drifted off to sleep saturday night - if only because i felt really bad and sad of the way i still react. i mean, it wasn't as if the person was never kind to me. it's just that the last few encounters were so bad that i still can't shake them off. but there's nothing much i can do, and it's something i can't change within me. so... ganun tlga. i only cried because... sometimes that is the best way i can just let things go. -==- options, options, options. where are you??