status: still in slight panic mode

it's funny.

the thing that's keeping me up at night is also the thing that has made me feel more grounded to myself. if i used to sometimes feel like i'm floundering around and unsure about myself, i've finally found my footing.

i daresay, my life and i have finally reached middle ground. i guess the word is "direction".

it's funny how things work out.

not that i'm saying everything is in place - but it's at least nice to find a piece of myself settling. so now, i feel like i won't be floundering around as much as i used to.

-==-

morbid thought ( ok, i don't know why this popped in my head just now, especially since i have no doubts but anyway... ):

if any of this goes away (knock on wood, sigh) though, it'll be akin to death i guess.

*shrug*

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