the rest of my life is eagerly waiting for you...

i have been out of the country for four days.

i have eight more to go.

as the days go by, i've realized increasingly how hard it is for me to be away from someone for so long.

i miss him so badly.

i hear his voice, sure. i am in constant contact because he texts me, great.

but to have him around is something else.

it's really not just about missing him, really. i've come to realize as the days go by that i do not want him to be ever out of my life. that i always want him to be part of my life, that i want to share everything with him -- things like meeting my best friend after six long years and introducing him to him, going to niagara and getting drenched, being cranky because of lack of sleep, eating in kelsey's in toronto, meeting other jakarta friends who now live in canada, walking around with my cousins, flying to maryland, looking for things to buy... i did all these things the past four days and every second, i imagined what it would be like if he were beside me. making kulit with my sisters with me. laughing with me. sharing stories and secrets with me.

my life is intertwined with his, i see that now.

and i never want that to change.

sayangku, i told you earlier that the rest of my life is eagerly waiting for you.

i can't wait to see all our plans unfold and come true.

i really, really miss you.

Comments

angel said…
truly a blessing to find someone like that.. someone who can make you realize you want him to be THAT person in your life. im glad you're happy. makes everything else worth it no?

i, on the other hand, may have someone in mind. still unsure if its on the same level as you, but definitey pray that i will always have that person in my life...and that i am wanted in someone else's life as well... :)

life is good.
3:06 PM
kaye said…
yup, makes everything truly worth it.

even if we don't really know it, we're always wanted in someone else's life. :)

life is good. really can't complain. :)
3:15 AM
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